Offf—How I miss being happy again! Home is peaceful, sometimes boring, and doesn’t always make us happy. Yet it’s that peace I need to be left in, it’s that boredom I like to feel again, and it’s that sort of home I’m longing for. So paradoxical is this world of pleasing pain and painful pleasure. So strange is the life we are forced to live. So disturbing and sad is the certainty of death.