My soul, where hope once resided, is full of inexplicable fear. Even the heart that inhabits my bosom has become stranger to me. The way it beats terrifies me, and one can’t feel safe in the presence of a complete stranger. I don’t know what other surprises fate has for me. But I know my departure hour is near at hand. […] I would bravely say goodbye to this wonderful life, but not with noisy cries as I said hello to it when I first jumped from mom’s womb into it. God is fair, life isn’t but it goes on. And I’m not as innocent as I seem nor as good as I proclaim, or even as happy as I wish…